Dear Me,

It’s been a month ago but sometimes I’m still thinking whether I had made the right move, or the right decision.

I know when it started it happened for a reason and that maybe it was really meant for me. And I’m already getting the hang of it.

Well, actually. When I’m starting, I’m thinking whether I could do it or not? I feel like I don’t wanna go in that place everytime I have too. I just feel lazy or something. And aside on how some Filipino co-workers treat us, I’m having doubt on myself if I could do the job by myself. On the other hand, I started feeling like I’m worth something. That I’m not useless.

But I quit.

But when I did, even when just having the thought of it, I didn’t want too. I like the place all of the sudden. And the people around us somehow starting to like us but it wasn’t the point. I know I couldn’t do the job. And I do have to decided now.

I’m having doubts, second thought because I’m too scared of the unknown. I didn’t even gave it a try. So until now sometimes I’m still thinking, “How am I now if I gave it a shot? Am I still there? Or I’m already having backache problems if I did?” ^.^ (Well, those patients are too heavy for me for sure.)

Dang! It should have been my way going to the lab!

Chanter